So much of my life, time, money, effort, blood, sweat and tears was poured into the EMT class (and this semester in general)... I feel like Frodo and Sam after they destroyed the ring. What do we do now that it is over. I am changed... I am emotionally and physically changed. I cannot unlearn or unsee the things I have. I cannot go back and not know the skills I do. I put so much effort into the class to just to end it so anti-climatically feels a bit morose leaving me as if I was moribund. I cannot go back from having witnessed deaths and graphic medical emergencies and learning how to deal with it. I just know how to now. I feel changed but I feel empty. I want to use my knowledge but I guess it is that end of finals feeling where you have a moment to ponder and reflect upon everything you learned, saw, did and experienced and the efforts and turmoil that you put into it to get there and then just to see it end is bittersweet. Whelp, can't wait till next semester.
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